It's nighttime, so the fears are settling in. I miss my husband terribly, and I know the pain will subside but right now I'm going through a myriad of feelings. I've got butterflies in my stomach right now because I'm nervous I'll mess up raising the kids. I'm sad because they're sad, and I can't hug my Handsome Man. I'm afraid I'll forget the sound of his voice or I'll forget what he looks like. I don't want to move on, or work. I want to crawl into a ball and wait for him. But I have the kids and he was so worried about them. I have to help ease those fears by raising them to be productive citizens.
I'm tired. So very, very tired.
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